2016 Resolution: To Be Happy

I have a love hate relationship with resolutions. Usually, it's a hate one because I never remember my resolution more than a week after I make them. So, now that 2016 is here, I'm going to make one, and actually try to stick to it. Wish me luck.
My resolution for 2016 is to be happy and healthy both mentally and physically. 2015 was a good and successful year, in terms of academics, work, and life in general. I made Dean's List both Spring and Fall 2015, I got better jobs as time went on, and I even did a bit of traveling. However, I will look back at 2015, and remember something else. Anxiety. Anxiety, that cold little ghost that lies in the back of my closet, ready to spring and haunt me at a moments notice. Anxiety, paralyzing me from doing anything other than want to grasp onto anything that will offer me an ounce of support. Anxiety can make me want to burst into tears, despite having a good day otherwise. I hate that stupid anxiety, and 2016 I am going to devote to making sure it tries to stay away.
In 2016, I'm going to try my best to be happy. I'm going to try to not worry so much as I go back to school, and am struggling to stay sane as the homework piles up. I'm going to try to do more things for fun, and more things to look foreword to. I'm going to try to not worry that I'm not going to do well, and try my best. I think that's the best medicine to keep the anxiety infection away, and the right steps to take as I look to take care of myself. I think that's what I want to spend 2016 doing. Hopefully, it will equal happiness, but we'll have to wait and see.
So while everyone around me pledges to lose that last bit of unwanted pounds, or do something else that seems out of reach, I'll try to better myself. I think that's the best kind of resolution out there, if you ask me. 

What Has Passed; What Will Become

As 2013 comes to an end, I realize that this year has in a way come to be full cycle. This year, I've grown a lot, gained responsiblity, experience, and friends.

This year, I got my learner's permit. That's a big deal, because I am really excited to get my license. I hope that new year I can get it because I really want to drive and be able to take myself places. Another awesome thing that happened was that I got my first job at my school's library. This is exciting because for once, I really felt that I can handle myself finanically. Plus, it's awesome to be able to have the freedom to buy whatever I want, and to be able to say that I earned the money to do so.

This year I feel like I grew as a person as well. I began to realize that I truly deserve to be happy, with myself, and with the people who I surround myself with. I deserve a chance to be happy. I also learned that I deserve to be treated with respect as well. I feel like this is important in every relationship we have in life, not just romantic ones. I also am slowly learning that  it's okay to make mistakes, and it's okay to finally let your walls down for someone. That's perfectly alright, because some people deserve to hold you. The ones who put the holes in your heart, don't. 

There are many memories of this year that I will always cherish. This summer was by far the best summer of my life. I enjoyed spending time with my friend who was the foreign exchange student from my old high school, however saying goodbye to her wasn't so fun. I enjoyed watching her go through things that we as Americans consider normal. Like, going to prom, and having a graduation. I also had a lot of crazy girls nights with my crazy girls, went on long walks and coffee dates with my best friend, and said goodbye to him as he left college. I got into a huge and stupid fight with my best girl friend, but was able to get over it. Now we're best friends again. 

2013 overall was a great year for me. It's had its ups and it's had it's downs. I enjoyed it overall. 2014 will also be awesome, as the clock turns 12, and a new beginning will dawn upon us. This upcoming year will be my year. This will be the year that I conquer my mental demons, and the year that I finally will get my license. This will be the year that I work harder, save more, and blossom into a shiny brand new me. I'll actually make Dean's list, because I am no longer obligated to take a math class. (which was my downpoint) Honestly, that could happen, or I could be completely bullshitting you guys. You know how resolutions work. Anyways at the end of the day, 2014 will be my year. Even if it doesn't know it yet. 

In conclusion, 2013 was great. But 2014 will be even better. Happy New Year to all of my readers! I hope 2014 will be awesome for you.