Where Are You, Soulmate?

The following post is something that has been on my mind lately, and something that I've been thinking about.

How many of you have heard the term soulmate? You know the two perfect piece of the whole, that other half of your heart that exists somewhere in the world, and our life's destination, other than finding decent work and stuff, is to find it? And once you do, it's the best thing ever. You feel like jumping on the roof tops, and yelling 'I've found the one!'

But, where do you find the one? 

From what I've gathered about this soulmate business, is that when you find the one that you're meant to be with, it's like a lightbulb goes right off in your head. You know and there's no questions about it. It's like yup that's my soulmate. But, could you be wrong about the whole soulmate business? Like, could you think that someone's your soulmate, and then be like 'okay, they are not my soulmate, sorry guys.'

I sometimes think that my soulmate is located in the witness protection program. But then again, its probably cause I met a lot of frogs instead of princes. I also sometimes think that I've found the one who Elton John sings about, you know when 'all you ever need was the one/when freedom feels when wild horses run'. If love is like the songs, then it's supposed to be great, and once you found the one the story ends. 

I sometimes think its hard for me to like love someone unconditionally. I sometimes think that its hard for me to be loved unconditionally. I mean I have faults, and I am a moody little bitch. I have times when I doubt whether or not someone actually cares about me and then I doubt whether or not I'm right. I have trust issues, eat too much chocolate, and can't save a dime to save my life. I guess this whole soulmate business is when someone loves you despite the facts that you have these faults. Maybe this soulmate even loves your faults. 

I've been thinking a lot about this. Sometimes, I do wish that my soulmate would come out of thin air and be like 'hey I am your soulmate'. Yes, I am impatient. I just doubts, trust issues, and I worry too much. (mostly for no reason.)  However, I don't want the movies where you find the one, and it just ends. I want the after the movie things, where you don't get to see everything.  

Maybe I've watched way too much of He's Just Not That Into You, which is probably likely because I've watched it twice while being snowed in. I just sometimes wonder, and maybe even doubt whether or not this soulmate business is legit. I sometimes wonder if he could be reading my blog, or perhaps even right in front of me. 

So soulmate, whereever the hell that you are, can you promise me that you'll love me when I am no longer young and beautiful.

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Closeted Optimist.

"You make me feel like I am living a teenage dream..."

Okay, so I'm opening up this with the lyrics of my favorite love songs because that song is to me what being love should be like. However, I am the first person to admit that I have issues with being a love optimist despite my peppy music choice. Ladies and gentlemen, I am a closeted optimist.

What is a closeted optimist? It's a person who is too afraid for whatever reason to admit that they actually have some sort of belief that they will ever be happy in some sort of romantic relationship. They are the people who think who make fun of people that are overly cheesy/cliche/romantic on Facebook. Therefore, they use humor as their defense mechanism. They tend to be the people that truly want to be happy, but are too afraid to be. Therefore they think why bother, let's mock it!

Being pessimistic about love is common especially after you went through a bad experience, or have gotten rejected many times. They've suffered broken hearts, and ate Ben and Jerry's while watching Leonardo say "you jump I jump." With that being said, they come with a lot of complications, and white scars on their hearts. They are the ones that feel like they can never win, and therefore become pessimistic. And then they mock the ones that are happy. 

I guess you can say that I am sort of like that. I've dealt with a lot of rejection and I've had a few bad breakups. However, you can't be pessimistic about love. That closes off the door for true happiness. I used to feel like I wasn't good enough to have a boyfriend. 

One thing though that really annoys me is couples that really can't shut up on Facebook. They are the ones that either can't stop posting statuses, photos, and photo captions that would make the Hallmark company jealous. You all know what I am talking about. I wonder if it's my optimism about love that makes me feel that way, but that honestly is so annoying. One or two pictures or statuses a week is fine. That's actually really cute if your significant other is sick and you wish that they are better. Or if you guys are doing something and post a photo of you guys doing it. However, there's a line that gets crossed if you post selfies of you guys pretty much everyday. We get it. You're in love, you met someone who doesn't suck, etc. I believe that couples should leave things online, and therefore posting about your significant other more than once or twice a week can be one thing-annoying. It's not that I am happy for you virtual friend for finding the right person. It's just after a while, I begin to wonder if you care about anything else than your cute boyfriend who your Facebooking about.

Enough about my hatred towards some annoying Facebook people. However, I often wonder if my hatred for that comes from my pessimism. At the end of the day, all I want is someone to appear at my window with a boombox. John Hughes, can you direct my life, please?