Watching Nashville = the inner songwriter in me very happy.
I Dream of You:
Just a friend you say is a matter of fact,
But friends don't look at each other like that.
You have in this cat and mouse game;
Ever since I met you, nothing has been the same
You've got me trapped,
I can't get back
To who I should be,
Hey look what you've done to me.
I dream of you, every night
I dream of you, wondering when the time is right
I dream of you, wishing I could,
I dream of you, wondering if I should.
It comes every night like clockwork,
I know it's gonna hurt,
But at the end of the day,
In every way,
I dream of you
I try to live my life,
But it's cutting me like a knife.
I can't move foreward or back,
You've got me off track
I should be happy when I'm sad,
I like you too much to be mad.
I dream of you, every night
I dream of you, wondering when the time is right
I dream of you, wishing I could,
I dream of you, wondering if I should.
It comes every night like clockwork,
I know it's gonna hurt,
But at the end of the day,
In every way,
I dream of you
Dreaming and doing are two different things,
I'm anxious to see what tomorrow brings,
Will you be my side,
Damn you damn my pride,
I want you, nothing but you,
Bet your ass that it's true.
I dream of you, every night
I dream of you, wondering when the time is right
I dream of you, wishing I could,
I dream of you, wondering if I should.
It comes every night like clockwork,
I know it's gonna hurt,
But at the end of the day,
In every way,
I dream of you
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Lotus.
Unbreakable flower, come up from broken pieces;
This is the end, no it's the beginning.
It's not the end until I'm okay,
I'm still waiting for that day.
I have a long way to go,
I still have ends to tie,
I still have my friends to stand by.
But will they lie there forever,
Will I finally come together?
Move on,
Everyone else has.
I'm lotus,
I guess I'm selling myself short,
Lotus flower don't break.
Bend, but too strong to snap.
I'm a lotus flower.
This is the end, no it's the beginning.
It's not the end until I'm okay,
I'm still waiting for that day.
I have a long way to go,
I still have ends to tie,
I still have my friends to stand by.
But will they lie there forever,
Will I finally come together?
Move on,
Everyone else has.
I'm lotus,
I guess I'm selling myself short,
Lotus flower don't break.
Bend, but too strong to snap.
I'm a lotus flower.
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Past.
I've been in this weird melancholy kind of mood lately. I've been thinking about how things used to be, and how things are now. I've been feeling like I've screwed up everything in my past; old friendships, to love affairs. I keep on thinking about what I've could have done to change how my life is now, how I could have done something better. Yes, I'm a matyr, but that's okay.
I realize that there is no way of rewinding life. I wish there was, but modern day science hasn't come up with a cure to fixing screw ups. I wish I could, but I can't. It's the way the world works, and we have to move on and accept it for what it is. We can't do more to the situation then what we've already done. Sometimes, things are also best left not to touch, because then you'll only hurt yourself more. It's sad, but it's true.
Over the past year, I've had to decide what to leave in my past and what to bring to my future. Unfortunatly, sometimes, it means we've lost friends who we thought that we would always have. Other times, we realize how dominant others' presence is in our lives, and without them in it, it sucks.
However, in life we can not get too comfortable. There's a time when we're meant to be happy, and there's times when we're meant too be sad. Don't mess with what's meant to be; that's some serious shit, folks.
I guess the Fray puts it the best: "You can't fall away from your past, it's following you."
I realize that there is no way of rewinding life. I wish there was, but modern day science hasn't come up with a cure to fixing screw ups. I wish I could, but I can't. It's the way the world works, and we have to move on and accept it for what it is. We can't do more to the situation then what we've already done. Sometimes, things are also best left not to touch, because then you'll only hurt yourself more. It's sad, but it's true.
Over the past year, I've had to decide what to leave in my past and what to bring to my future. Unfortunatly, sometimes, it means we've lost friends who we thought that we would always have. Other times, we realize how dominant others' presence is in our lives, and without them in it, it sucks.
However, in life we can not get too comfortable. There's a time when we're meant to be happy, and there's times when we're meant too be sad. Don't mess with what's meant to be; that's some serious shit, folks.
I guess the Fray puts it the best: "You can't fall away from your past, it's following you."
Friday, January 4, 2013
Underneath it All.
I've spent most of my winter holidays reading the Bill Clinton autobiography. Why? Because I believe that Bill is one of the better presidents in recent history, and plus it looked good. (And I can now say I've read a thousand paged book, take that!)
Anyways, reading an autobiography got me thinking.Often we judge people based on their actions. More often then not; we don't question the reasoning behind our actions. We just think that if they do a bad thing that they are a jerk, and if they do a good thing, then they are a good person. Sometimes, they could be forced to do things, internally or externally.
What I like about autobiographies is that they allow you to put your input on certain subjects and issues, good and bad. It helps you tell your story, the way you perceived the situations that you were in, and for the public to at last relate to what you've been through. It shows you; underneath it all.
My insight for the day? Read an autobiography.
Anyways, reading an autobiography got me thinking.Often we judge people based on their actions. More often then not; we don't question the reasoning behind our actions. We just think that if they do a bad thing that they are a jerk, and if they do a good thing, then they are a good person. Sometimes, they could be forced to do things, internally or externally.
What I like about autobiographies is that they allow you to put your input on certain subjects and issues, good and bad. It helps you tell your story, the way you perceived the situations that you were in, and for the public to at last relate to what you've been through. It shows you; underneath it all.
My insight for the day? Read an autobiography.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Good vs. Evil?
In life, there are a lot of opposites. For example, chocolate vs. vanilla, is a popular one. White and black, is another. However, the battle that I feel is the most important is the one that's called Good vs. Evil, perhaps even the most popular debate of the opposites of all time. However, we must ask ourselves what makes someone good and what makes someone evil? Is there a gray area to this debate, and if so, what is it?
Good and evil are very easy to identify in movies thanks to pop culture. The person whose identified as evil tends to be unattractive, wearing red or black, and of course inflicting torture to a person that is identified as being good. The good person happens to be attractive, wearing a happy color, perhaps smaller in stature, and of course tends to be victimized by the so called evil person.
But sometimes, we must realize that good people do bad things and vice versa. Is this the moral gray zone that author Primo Levi talks about in his work The Drowned and the Saved? I'm sure Primo Levi would classify this gray zone in extreme examples such as a concentration camp, where sometimes one must compromise their morals and do things that they normally shouldn't, and wouldn't have to in a normal life, just to survive. Does that make them evil? I think you would argue that they wouldn't classify as being evil if you include the grounds that are involved, like their residence in a concentration camp, when all of what makes them human is gone; the stripping of their hair and personal values, and being tattooed. They were branded like animals, who only thought survival as their top priority. Does that make their actions evil? I think not, but you can argue different.
Then we have the example of good gone bad. In recent pop culture/literature, we have two examples of such. The first being Anakin Skywalker, also known as Darth Vader. Anakin was known as the Chosen One in the prophecy, and perhaps one of the best of the Jedi, which in Star Wars lingo translates into the good guys who will fight to create balance in the force. They are the ones that fight for peace, against the bad people. Anyways, Anakin was one of the good guys, but began to lust for power, perhaps for fear to save his wife, Padme, whom he fear he would lose in child birth, the woman who he loved more then anything. He met with Darth Sideus, who showed him how he can save her, however, it cost Anakin his morals, killing many young Jedi, and betraying the ones that he in fact loved. He ended up losing his wife in the end, something that I think is kind of ironic, because that's what he fought to prevent. We watch in the prequel trilogy Anakin go from the good guy to the bad, defender of whats good to the evil that takes the good away. The next example is Lord Voldemart, also known as Tom Riddle. I'm a little fuzzy on my knowledge of Harry Potter, but Lord Voldemort was the one whose primary goal was to kill every one in his path. He took the lives of hundreds. I can't remember his primary goal of why he did take those lives, all I remember he too, was at first talented and gifted (kind of like Anakin), and then slowly turned to evil.
I firmly believe that the debate between good and evil is not a black and white issue, because sometimes good people do bad things, and bad people can eventual do some good. I guess it's a balancing act, a ying yang thing. I also believe that without evil good cannot exist, and without good evil can not exist. One can not exist without the other, and I guess that I have no firm opinion to the issue. But that's okay.
Good and evil are very easy to identify in movies thanks to pop culture. The person whose identified as evil tends to be unattractive, wearing red or black, and of course inflicting torture to a person that is identified as being good. The good person happens to be attractive, wearing a happy color, perhaps smaller in stature, and of course tends to be victimized by the so called evil person.
But sometimes, we must realize that good people do bad things and vice versa. Is this the moral gray zone that author Primo Levi talks about in his work The Drowned and the Saved? I'm sure Primo Levi would classify this gray zone in extreme examples such as a concentration camp, where sometimes one must compromise their morals and do things that they normally shouldn't, and wouldn't have to in a normal life, just to survive. Does that make them evil? I think you would argue that they wouldn't classify as being evil if you include the grounds that are involved, like their residence in a concentration camp, when all of what makes them human is gone; the stripping of their hair and personal values, and being tattooed. They were branded like animals, who only thought survival as their top priority. Does that make their actions evil? I think not, but you can argue different.
Then we have the example of good gone bad. In recent pop culture/literature, we have two examples of such. The first being Anakin Skywalker, also known as Darth Vader. Anakin was known as the Chosen One in the prophecy, and perhaps one of the best of the Jedi, which in Star Wars lingo translates into the good guys who will fight to create balance in the force. They are the ones that fight for peace, against the bad people. Anyways, Anakin was one of the good guys, but began to lust for power, perhaps for fear to save his wife, Padme, whom he fear he would lose in child birth, the woman who he loved more then anything. He met with Darth Sideus, who showed him how he can save her, however, it cost Anakin his morals, killing many young Jedi, and betraying the ones that he in fact loved. He ended up losing his wife in the end, something that I think is kind of ironic, because that's what he fought to prevent. We watch in the prequel trilogy Anakin go from the good guy to the bad, defender of whats good to the evil that takes the good away. The next example is Lord Voldemart, also known as Tom Riddle. I'm a little fuzzy on my knowledge of Harry Potter, but Lord Voldemort was the one whose primary goal was to kill every one in his path. He took the lives of hundreds. I can't remember his primary goal of why he did take those lives, all I remember he too, was at first talented and gifted (kind of like Anakin), and then slowly turned to evil.
I firmly believe that the debate between good and evil is not a black and white issue, because sometimes good people do bad things, and bad people can eventual do some good. I guess it's a balancing act, a ying yang thing. I also believe that without evil good cannot exist, and without good evil can not exist. One can not exist without the other, and I guess that I have no firm opinion to the issue. But that's okay.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
My Song. Not Yours.
Lately, I've been in a movie mood. I've watched a complete Star Wars marathon, a bunch of lame Hallmark movies credit to my mother and grandmother who are obsessed with the freaking channel, Beverly Hills Cop, and the movie Burlesque. Yes, I've been bored out of my mind lately.
Anyways, back to my little introduction. Those movies inspired me to write a song, the following song called Love's Wings Become Tainted. I worked really hard on it, and I would gladly enjoy you guys to read it.And if it sucks..please don't tell me. I'd like to think it's a little bit decent.
Love's Wings Become Tainted:
I hate what you've done to me,
You've turned me into everything I said I wouldn't be.
I tried to keep myself from getting hurt,
All I did was throw my heart into dirt.
Now you're gone,
I always thought that you could have been the one.
But haven't you heard?
That's in my perfect world.
When did love get so complicated?
Is that when love's wings become tainted.
You hit me like a boomerrang
Am I the only one who sang?
I love you.
Well I guess a strong feeling ain't true.
Is this what happens when love's wings become taited.
Is this what happens when pride becomes faded?
It turns friends into enimies,
Am I the only one who sees
Damage spread like wild fire.
Spoken from a broken heart that will never tire.
Well I believe in you,
Oh yes, I do.
It may not last forever,
I'll be able to sew this pieces together.
When did love get so complicated?
Is that when love's wings become tainted.
You hit me like a boomerrang
Am I the only one who sang?
I love you.
Well I guess a strong feeling ain't true.
Is this what happens when love's wings become taited.
Is this what happens when pride becomes faded?
Broken hearts, broken promises
Am I the only one who misses?
Broken dreams,
Ripped at the seams
As they become faded
Wings become tainted
When did love get so complicated?
Is that when love's wings become tainted.
You hit me like a boomerrang
Am I the only one who sang?
I love you.
Well I guess a strong feeling ain't true.
Is this what happens when love's wings become taited.
Is this what happens when pride becomes faded?
Anyways, back to my little introduction. Those movies inspired me to write a song, the following song called Love's Wings Become Tainted. I worked really hard on it, and I would gladly enjoy you guys to read it.And if it sucks..please don't tell me. I'd like to think it's a little bit decent.
Love's Wings Become Tainted:
I hate what you've done to me,
You've turned me into everything I said I wouldn't be.
I tried to keep myself from getting hurt,
All I did was throw my heart into dirt.
Now you're gone,
I always thought that you could have been the one.
But haven't you heard?
That's in my perfect world.
When did love get so complicated?
Is that when love's wings become tainted.
You hit me like a boomerrang
Am I the only one who sang?
I love you.
Well I guess a strong feeling ain't true.
Is this what happens when love's wings become taited.
Is this what happens when pride becomes faded?
It turns friends into enimies,
Am I the only one who sees
Damage spread like wild fire.
Spoken from a broken heart that will never tire.
Well I believe in you,
Oh yes, I do.
It may not last forever,
I'll be able to sew this pieces together.
When did love get so complicated?
Is that when love's wings become tainted.
You hit me like a boomerrang
Am I the only one who sang?
I love you.
Well I guess a strong feeling ain't true.
Is this what happens when love's wings become taited.
Is this what happens when pride becomes faded?
Broken hearts, broken promises
Am I the only one who misses?
Broken dreams,
Ripped at the seams
As they become faded
Wings become tainted
When did love get so complicated?
Is that when love's wings become tainted.
You hit me like a boomerrang
Am I the only one who sang?
I love you.
Well I guess a strong feeling ain't true.
Is this what happens when love's wings become taited.
Is this what happens when pride becomes faded?
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
2012 Confessions, Welcome 2013.
I've decided that 2013 is going to be my year. Why? Cause I fucking said so, that's why. I mean seriously. It's going to rock. Yes, I have too much optimism and positivity, but I've spent too much of last year being a pessimist, which isn't exactly a good thing either. So here's to self confidence, and having a big ego! Yay! However, I still have a few thoughts about 2012. One I miss my best friend who I once considered to be a sister, and although we moved on to different parts of our lives, I miss our friendship. I miss being close to another friend, and talking to them everyday. I miss just being close to them in general. I also wanted to say 2012 didn't totally suck, and that I'm truly grateful for my posse for having my back for all of the ups and downs, left and rights. You all know who you are. No need for me to write that list.
Let's make 2013 sparkle people.
Let's make 2013 sparkle people.
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