Lately, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my values, views and opinions on various things. What do I stand for? What do I believe in?
For starters, I don't believe in spending my time with people who don't do the right things, or things that I'm not comfortable with. That doesn't mean that if you're my friend and you begin to drink an alcoholic beverage, I wouldn't want to be your friend. It does mean that I probably won't be around you, or situations when alcohol is present. I believe that you are who you surround yourself with, and I don't want to spend my time getting drunk or doing actions that could have a long term effect than waking up with a hangover. Alcohol is not my thing, and I ask that if you are my friend that you respect my views on this subject. I will, when I turn 21 and it's legal try alcohol, but not to the point where I'm drunk and overindulgent. Because that's where I think it's the problem area. Plus, when you're underage, I can't help but wonder if people drink it just simply because of the thrill of doing something forbidden.
I also believe that all relationships should start out private. In my previous one, I would tell everyone who would listen that I was in a relationship with this wonderful guy, who wasn't so wonderful. Looking back, now I want to keep certain things private. I believe that it's no one's business other than myself, the person involved, and parents. This gives us time to truly figure out what's what, with out friends, or anyone else having their own opinion about it. I would eventually, when it felt right, post my relationship status on social networking sites, and tell friends. But I won't change it right away, or even after post those sappy status that you see. (you guys know what I'm talking about.) I believe that it takes away from what you actually have, which is right in front of you. Not in front of a screen.
I've also decided to stand up for myself or others whenever I feel like myself or others are not being treated right. I have a habit of letting people walk all over me, and that has got to stop. The only time I really voice my opinion when something is wrong, is with people that I know that will listen to me and not want to hate me afterwards. It's a matter of comfort zone, and I realize that's not how it works. If you're treating me badly, then I'm going to tell you so we can fix it. It's as simple as that. If you don't agree or even want to, then perhaps you're not worth having in my life.
I'm also beginning to accept myself for what I am, not what I wished that I could be. I used to hate the way that I look. Now, I've figured out who I am, and I'm okay that I'm not a size zero. I'm okay with the choices that I've made. Sometimes I have my moments, but I think that's a part of being human. Everyone has days when their heels aren't that shiny.
Being true to yourself is perhaps the most important thing to keep in mind for this life. I believe that because if you're not true to yourself, then you find yourself in situations that you don't want to be in. Then, the shoe won't fit just right, and the friends that you have only know the face that you put on for them. Not the naked soul that stands behind them. I'm still finding my voice, but I'm sure more about myself now than I've ever been.