Monday, December 31, 2012


2012 has bought a lot of things, both good and bad for me. The good of course being that I graduated high school and have started college, yay. The bad being that I've lost friendships that I really wished that I haven't lost, friends that were very near and dear to me. But the most important thing of the year is that I learned that I can take anything that is thrown in my way. I'm no longer afraid to walk in the face of the fire of fear, in fact I welcome it.
However, I have some goals and things that I would like to accomplish during this upcoming year. My resolutions range from improving myself, for the recent future, and the not so recent future. My new year's resolutions include the following:
  1. Eat less chocolate. I've been seriously turning into a chocolate addict, and it's really bad. Not only for me, but for my body. I try to treat my body like a temple, sacred, and I want to treasure what I'm given. I don't want to wiegh my body down with things that are not good for me. Not going to lie, I'm still going to eat cookies and cupcakes..just not so much.
  2. Try to do better in school. I've come to the conclusion that I'm never going to be Albert Einsteen and have a 4.0. With that being said, I should try my very best to reach perfection. I did really well for my first semester, now I want to try even harder, and do even better..except for math. That I make no promises. 
  3. To meet more people. I have a hard time getting out there and meeting new people. I want to join more clubs, and perhaps make more friends, which is always a good thing. 
  4. To write something, and actually finish it. I'm going to be a novelist..I kinda should finish something that I've written, ficitonwise. My goal is to write and complete a novel during the year 2013..even if it sucks..then I'll always be able to edit and make it better. 
  5. The strength accept the things I can not change, to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Happy New Year everyone!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

What I Hate About Facebook.

I'm not a huge fan of Facebook anymore. for many reasons. First of all, the timeline thing is stupid. Plus, I don't want my friends to see all of the stupid things that I've posted back when I was an angst teenager. Hell, I'm still angst, but I think I'm a little more refined. I hope I am. Second of all, I hate it when people use it as a place to vent. Yes, I understand that you're upset with whatever's bothering you. However, there is a limit to what should be posted online. The thing that I hate most is that people write sad statuses, just to get some kind of attention. Newsflash: If you're upset, text someone or get a therapist. Don't broadcast it to the entire world. Third of all, I hate LMS. I don't honestly get the point of that. Is that to show how many friends you have? Because if Facebook's a popularity contest, then I'm clearly losing. And lastly, mirror pics. I think thanks to Facebook I've seen nearly all of the girls I know bathrooms. And the duck face! OMG seriously it's not attractive. Alright? Bye.
Anyways, those are my qualms about Facebook. This has been written as a comedy piece, and not to offend anyone.

Monday, December 24, 2012

Happy Holidays!

I would like to take a moment to wish each and every one of you a Merry Christmas, a Happy Hanukkah or Kwanza! (or whatever you celebrate) Hope you have a great holiday, and enjoy all of the time that you share with your family friends and loved ones, with whatever traditions you may share.
Merry Christmas, Internet!

Sunday, December 23, 2012

2012: The Playlist.

2012 was an amazing year of music. Britain has taken over the charts, and artists that haven't come up with new music in nearly a decade at last came together. So, I've compiled a playlist of my favorite songs from the year 2012. Let's go kids.
  • Gotta be you- One Direction. I'm not a huge fan of One Direction, but for some odd reason, I really like this song. It's very ballad, which I thoroughly enjoy. However, this is the ONLY song I actually listen to obessively...for the record.
  • Call Me Maybe; Tiny Little Bows; Good Time (featuring Owl City) by Carly Rae Jepson. I will admit, these songs are my musical guilty pleasures. She's really talented, and of course, I think Call Me Maybe is the anthem of 2012. She's just awesome. Don't hate. 
  • Looking Hot; One More Summer; Push and Shove; Settle Down by No Doubt. I was so excited when their new album came out, after nearly ten years of breaking up, and let me just say this it was amazing. These songs are a few of my favorites from Push and Shove, and are very, very amazing. Ps: they were amazing in their GMA Summer Concert Series Performance.
  • Girl Gone Wild; I Don't Give A..., Give Me All Your Lovin' (featuring Nicki Minaj & MIA); Gang Bang; I'm Addicted; Turn Up The Radio by Madonna. I'm a huge Madonna fan. Needless to say, I love MDNA, despite it's bad critical reviews. I'm not a huge fan of pop music, but I can honestly say that Madonna is one of the best artists out there.You go, Madonna!
  • Girl on Fire (featuring Nicki Minaj) by Alicia Keys. I loved this song ever since I heard it on MTV. Alicia's just talented. That's all. 
  • Country Girl (shake it for me); Drunk on You; Kiss Tomorrow Goodbye by Luke Bryan. Okay, EVERY song in Tailgates and Tanlines is amazing. These however are a few of my favorites from him. Luke's amazing. And cute. That's all. Plus, I also got to see him perform on Good Morning America in the summer and that made me happy.
  • Blown Away; Good Girl; Two Black Cadillacs by Carrie Underwood. Blown Away was amazing. I really think it shows off how talented Carrie is. The message from Good Girl is amazing, that no girl should have to stick with a guy that makes her unhappy nor is not good enough for her.
  • Chasing the Sun; Glad you Came by the Wanted. Catchy. 
  • The Only Way I Know (featuring Luke Bryan & Eric Church) & Take a Ride by Jason Aledean. I really got into country music this year. The Only Way I Know is one of my favorite songs of the year, because a; it has Luke Bryan, and b: it's a good song. 
  • Anything Could Happen; Don't Say A Word; Lights by Ellie Goulding. I love her. Her songs are very original, which I look for in an artist. Anything Could Happen is literally my theme song. 
  • Everybody Talks by Neon Trees. It started with a whisper....
  • Somebody That I Used to Know by Gotye. The video...? Wierd. However, I love this song A LOT. They need to play it on the radio more. Even though it was over played..yeah's still good.
  • Skyfall by Adele. I'm not the world's biggest Adele fan, but I really like this song. And the movie. But the song's pretty good too. 
  • The A Team by Ed Sheeran. OKAY WHY DOES ENGLAND HAVE SO MANY AMAZING ARTISTS??? I love this guy. Literally, he's so talented, and it's such good music. How could you not love him? 
  • Your Body by Christina Aguilera. I'm one of the biggest Xtina fans ever. Lotus is one of her best albums ever. She has talent, kids, and I really need to get her CD. 
  • The entire Nashville soundtrack. This show? Amazing. These songs? Even more so. I literally have all of their songs. They are just so good!
  • Give Your Heart A Break by Demi Lovato. Demi's so talented, in addition to inspirational. Her songs are not only really good, they are very inspiring. Unbroken really shows her getting away from her Disney image with really raw and personal tracks. You go, Demi!
So those are my picks for 2012. As you can tell, I have a lot of music. But one can truly never have enough music, and I can't wait to watch my music libary grow bigger as the new year comes in. 

Wednesday, December 19, 2012


I often have been feeling miserable lately, kinda like Snooki and Gionni when she was in Italy and miserable all of the time. I mean, I'm not dating anyone, but still, I feel like that.
I've been really upset and miserable about a lot lately. I've been feeling upset about the stupidest things ever, and it's like I know that I shouldn't feel upset, but I do. I've been feeling lonely, and confused and walking around hurt.
I mean, there's so much that I should be grateful for. I should be grateful for my health, my house, and of course my awesome family and friends. But sometimes, health and happy friends are not enough. I've been feeling like I'm all alone, and I hate this feeling. I hate going from having everything, to having nothing. I hate losing my best friend, just simply due to the fact of idiocy.
So, yeah. That's my life. I'm just in one of those moods when I feel like I have no one...

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Dear Santa.

Dear Santa,
It's a week before Christmas, and I'm sure that you're extremely busy fulfilling the wishes of boys and girls all over the world. However, with that being said, I ask you for something.
Santa, less then a week ago, 27 lives were tragically taken from this earth. Twenty seven lives were taken too soon from this earth too soon. In July, more lives were taken from this earth in Colorado. Both of these lives were taken due to someone with a gun in their hands. Someone who obviously had problems of some sort, and failed to get help.
Santa, I ask you to find a solution to the violence. I ask you to take away some of the pain of those affected by these crimes, especially since they lost a child at such a young age. These parents shouldn't have to be planning funerals. They should be planning Christmas morning. They should be planning birthdays and their futures. They shouldn't have to be saying goodbye. Each of those kids had a bright future and now it's no more. They will never fall in love, they will never get married, graduate, have kids of their own, and have careers.
I also ask you to open the eyes of everyone. The only way to black out hate Santa, is to purify it with love. I ask for peace on Earth, before children are too scared. Children should be innocent, and free. They shouldn't have to worry about these types of things. The worrying is for the adults.
Santa, make this world, at last, be peaceful.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Never Forget

Yesterday, in a town about forty five minutes away from where I live, 28 lives have been lost, 20 of them being children. And it just breaks my heart. There's twenty children that won't get to see their high school graduations. There's twenty children who won't get their first kiss, their wedding days, and to enligten the world with their dreams. There are forty parents who are in mourning. Twenty families who will truly never be the same. I offer my deepest sympathies to them, as well as the families of the seven adults who have been killed. My thoughts and prayers are with each and every one of you, Newtown.
In addition to the lives he stole, he also stole something else from the survivors. He stole their innocence. Once a child's innocence is stolen, you can never get it back. He stole their sense of security. I will pray for them as well, because although they were lucky to survive, they've seen things that a child should not see. They learned at an early age, that the world isn't all warm and fuzzy, and that there are evil people in this world.
My question is why? Why would someone take the life of the child, who has not done anything possible to deserve being treated like that?
I will never forget 12.14.12. To those with a twitter account, there is a two minute moment of twitter slience, and I strongly think that every person in this world should participate, to respect those children lost. Twenty lives were stolen yesterday, due to an act of useless violance.
Never forget those children. Never forget their families. Never forget their teachers who have died saving their children.

Thursday, December 13, 2012


I've written exactly 100 entries in this here blog. Yay! I wanted to write about my dreams, mainly because I have a lot of them and I felt like sharing them with you all, my readers who I hope that are able to read 100 more insanely stupid entries that I've poured my heart and soul into.
I have many hopes and dreams, hopefully all that will get completed in my lifetime. I dream to write lots and lots of books, stories, blog entries, and poetry. I want to write enough that eventually people will study in school. I want to walk into the shoes of Louisa May Alcott, JK Rowling, and Jane Austen, and write not books, but classics. I hope to graduate with a BA in English (creative writing), and perhaps go for my master's.
I dream of getting married and having a family. I plan to adopt children, because I want to give kids who don't have a home of their own, and now where to go, and give them a happy and supportive environment for them to grow, with lots of books, love and cookies. (every child needs a cookie.)
I want to retire and I want to travel. I dream of hitting Italy. I want to learn Latin, and read a lot of the great books that are out there. I want to have great conversations about literature, politics, and pretty much anything with my spouse and or significant other.
But there's other dreams I have, however they may not be the dreams that will affect me directly. I dream of no being two or four legged being shot by a gun. I dream of conflict being solved by debate, not be a gun fight. I dream of being able to watch two men or two women being able to get married legally in every part of the nation, no the world. I dream of every animal having a home that keeps them warm at night. I dream of education becoming more available to everyone, making people be able to chose the school of their dreams based on programs that are offered not just whether or not they can be afforded. I dream of a better tomorrow that will be available for my adopted children. I dream of peace. I dream of a world that is filled with happiness.
All and all, I just dream for a better tomorrow.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Modern Love?

For some odd reason, I've been into the whole Catfish TV show. (Other than the fact that the host is gorgeous, just saying) I mean I find it interesting how people can meet online, and fall in love without actually meeting each other. Nowadays, it's becoming more and more the norm to find a partner online, whether by Facebook, or by some sort of dating website, (Christian Mingle, anyone?)
To be honest, I don't like the online dating components. I mean, it's becoming more and more common, and I guess I should be cool with it. But I think it takes away from the romance aspect of falling in love. I rather have a face to face conversation, rather than a Facebook conversation. I prefer phone calls and text messages over Skype and IMs. To be honest, I don't even care to use Facebook, unless you're a friend who I don't normally get to talk to, I tend not to use it. I don't know why, it doesn't seem very personal. I feel like in a sense, technology has taken over our lives, and I'm guilty of this as well.
 Another ascpect of this, perhaps the more sketchier part of this, is that you're falling in love with an illusion that is not an actual person. It could be, but sometimes, the person that you've fallen in love with may not be who you think that they are. I guess it happens when you actually know the person in real life, for example, Who is Clark Rockafeller. But it's much worse when you don't know the person, and you're trusting that someone who you've never met, may exist. They may, or they may not. For all you know they could be an alien.
I don't get this modern kind of love. Call me old fashioned, but I'd rather meet you and then fall in love with you.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012


I'm finishing up my first semester at college, and there's something that's truly confusing me. And that is the importance of partying and drinking. I mean, I understand it's okay to get wild when your parents are around, but sometimes, too much of anything, especially something like this can be a bad thing.
Let's get this straight: I'm a commuter at my school. I go to classes, a club meeting, and go home. I basically hang out with the same people as I did when I was in high school. I've made some friends, mostly commuters like myself, and they are pretty chill people, if I do say so myself. However, I see and hear people, mostly ones that live in dorms, who seem to think college is a party.
Newsflash people it's not.
Honestly, I hate it when people put drugs/alchol/partying before school. First of all, we're here to learn. We're not here to party. And the worst part of it all is that I feel like their parents are paying for them to go here, just so that they can party. Now for nothing, college is expensive, of course state universities like the one I go to cost less then a private one. I understand that you can not soley work, but also you can not get wasted every night. Just think about it. There are some countries who don't have the option to go to school, and follow their dreams. We are lucky to get that opportunity, to be able to make something of ourselves. But, instead of relishing of the opportunity, and trying our absolute best, I feel like some of my peers abuse their freedom, and treat every night like a party. This affects your performance academically, in addition to your future. I mean, your friends have cameras, right? And Facebook. Now more and more of our generation is more technology advanced, meaning that future employes can use the internet to see what you were up to. And a picture of you holding a red solo cup with your sority/fraturnity? Yeah, umm not good.
In my first semester, I learned two things. One, college is an adjustment. It still sucks, but I think it will get better. And two, it's what you make of it. Make your college years, your best years.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

My Worst Trait

A lot of people tend to think a lot about what's the best things about them, at least when it comes to their personality. For example, the best part of my personality is that I'm very friendly. (At least that's what I've heard)
However, there is something that I wish to change about me. In fact, there's a lot I'd like to change, but sometimes, you gotta leave certain things alone because those things are the things that make you, well you. However, sometimes, an old habit tends to die hard.
My worst trait is that I'm always self conscience and very insecure, with myself, with my friends, and basically in general. I often worry that I'm going to be made fun of for eating a lot of food when eating in public, and I often worry that my friends are going to get annoyed with me because sometimes, I'm in a bad mood, or sometimes, I want to discuss my own problems, instead of hearing them complain about how they are failing at something without trying, and wanting certain things to come easily to them, or something trivial like that. (I'm not getting into that whole whose problems are bigger then the others argument. We all have problems and sometimes, there isn't a solution for them. Sometimes, you do need someone to talk to, and I get that.) I often worry that I'm going to annoy everyone with my problems, and that all of my friends secretly hate me.I often read too much into things..something  that I shouldn't really do, because it only makes me depressed.
The first step in getting over this strange phobia is to perhaps look at the cause of the problem; like how did the person get to be that way. I got that way, because I used to hang out with people that probably weren't the right crowd for me. I had an annoyingly downer of an ex, who I constantly sought when we were dating for attention and stuff like that. Most of all, the pressure to be perfect sometimes is a weight that has grown, especially since I've started college.
I realize that no one is perfect. I am not a perfect human being. I can't throw or catch a ball, I have a close relationship with the ground (I can't take all of the credit for that one, my friend thought of that one). I suck at math. However, there are some good things that are good about me. Like my amazing writing ability. And the fact that I've played an instrument somewhat decently for nine years. I've made a lot of friends, and I have people that love me and care about me.
My insecurities are something that will not easily go away, but my new year's resolution for 2013 is to work on it. It's something that I feel is more important than starting a diet or something like that, because I know this is a probelm that can be solved in little steps. The first step is looking at the causes, and realizing that these things can be overcoming. The next? I'm not exactly sure. Maybe it's to realize that there is no perfect being? As Demi Lovato says "You're perfectly imperfect, and I wouldn't change a thing".
To be contuied.