If I Were To Rule the World

With great powers comes great responsibilities. Otherwise, then there could be great consequences. It is similar to when one goes for their license. The ones that speed and text are the ones who are too young to have the freedom to enjoy their car. Becoming a ruler of the world is similar like that. If I were to be a ruler to this world, I would bring about great changes to those living and change the way of life for the greater good forever. Change, especially great change is something that is gradual and is not expected to happen overnight. To make a change more permanent then everyone must be willing to do so; at least the vast majority.
The first and perhaps the most important thing on my list is to have the same rights for everyone, despite their sexual orientation, race or SES (socioeconomic status). A human is a human, despite their decisions, and the way that they choose to live their lives. They have a heart that beats blood through their veins. They have the same autonomy as us. Therefore they should have the rights that are the same as us. Let them get married. Let them have the same opportunities as you. This would change society for the better, simply because then everyone would have the same rights and everyone would get to marry who they want to love. This would make the world more fair, and everyone would at last be more equal.
After gay rights, I would next focus on adolescents. During puberty one tends to feel lonely. Therefore, I would propose every teenager getting a counselor to discuss issues ranging from issues with the opposite sex, and their changing bodies. This I believe to be important because I feel like more and more teens need someone to listen to them, someone whose not a parent, and to be told that they are beautiful inside and out. I would also focus on presenting more positive role models, such as Demi Lovato. By focusing on these issues, and making teens feel like there are people that are there for them that love them can only bring good things, and positive outcomes, which is a change to the way the world is now.
Let's not forget about the animals. Millions of dogs are abandoned each year. If it was up to me, then I would ensure brutal and negative consquences to those who do so. I want every animal to have a home and someone to cuddle with them on a daily basis. They need love too, and their freaking adorable, if I do say so myself. Let's make that statistic to zero, shall we?
I doubt that I'll become queen of the world anytime soon. However, I still can make changes to the greater good of society. Volunteering. Listening. I am one person, and with one person we can start a movement that we can at least work towards a greater goal.

Bucket List

Okay, so everyone has a list of things that they want to do during their lifetime. Whether or not that they make sense, they are there for us to forever wonder. Things that we have to do by the time we die. I got to thinking, what is on my list? So after careful thinking here's my list.

1. Go to the bar featured in the television show Cheers when I turn 21. 
2. See Aerosmith live in concert. 
3. Learn Latin.
4. Volunteer at a soup kitchen on Thanksgiving.
5. Go to Italy at least three times. 
6. Ride the Aerosmith ride. 
7. Go to Disney World. 
8. Write at least one novel in my life that gets published.
9. Go to a special event that has to do with the Royal Family, because I'm obsessed with them. Whether it's a wedding or something, it still would be awesome.
10. Help as many people I can when I become a therapist with problems that they may have, whether trivial or serious.
11. To make a difference, and an imprint in this world sometime before I die. 

Big Day? Yeah okay.

Okay, it's guilty pleasure time. So, I've been into the shows Four Weddings and Say Yes to the Dress on TLC. I don't know why, let's just blame it on the fact that I'm a girl. Yes, that seems about right. However, after watching all of these shows, I've developed an opinion about the whole wedding thing.
First and foremost, is the point of the wedding to celebrate one's love for someone? Not to wear a gown that reminds me of a cupcake, but because they love the person and want to celebrate it. Not everything has to be perfect because your love isn't perfect. I understand that you want to have the wedding that you dreamed of having since your Barbie days, but relax people. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE A PRINCESS AND YOU WILL NEVER BE, OKAY GET OVER IT. So, stop and chill the fuck out because seriously you need to take a chill pill.
The second thing is this wedding day I believe that is the start of your life together as husband and wife. It's the beginning of a journey that will take you down a road that you would not experience otherwise. This wedding is something that doesn't have to do with napkins and cake, it has to do with love.
I've gotton to thinking. Weddings aren't something that's worth making stress over. Sure, it's an exciting event, but it's no reason to be a complete and utter bitch to people. Of course, we only get one wedding in our lifetimes, but still. It just irks me when brides are like 'it's my day!' No one owns a day bitch. Second of all, don't forget your husband too, because he has some part of it...(and your diamond ring on your left finger...)
When I get married, I don't want all of the fuss. I don't think it's necessary. It's a day that has to be shared and celebrated by two people that are in love, and I want to keep it like that. If it was up to me then  I would go down to city hall wearing a simple white dress and blue heels, and just do it then and there. No fuss, right? The simple things are the best things.

Not For Me

A lot of my friends are in relationships. Some of them tend to have more drama then others. If you want my opinion, and screw that I'm going to give you my opinion anyway because I believe it to be important. I hate drama. I hate crying and making myself upset because it seems completely stupid and pointless. Who likes crying and feeling sad? Honestly. Isn't the point of a relationship to be HAPPY? Hello, happy isn't crying with a tub of ice cream because you're fighting with someone. Happy isn't shutting yourself off from society until he calls or texts.
I feel like some of the girls out there have unrealistic expectations on what's expected of a man that their with.  They watch the Notebook, and they think that relationships are like that. Well, they aren't. First of all, Noah and Allie's relationship is one scripted by a writer. Your relationship is written by God. Two different writers. Hollywood paints such an illusion of relationships that I often find myself wondering when will my prince arrive? (okay once, but still) Due to this, we expect the man to do this in real life.
Crazy girlfriends have become the rage on Twitter,  YouTube and Facebook. I DO follow her because she's so entertaining. But I couldn't notice the unrealistic expectations that she has for her boyfriend. For example, texting multiple times (okay fine, I've done this before), calling a girl a whore for liking her boyfriend's status, and countless other crazy things. These things are more and more becoming into real life.
First of all, if this applies to you, maybe you should CHILL for a second.
Second of all, it leaves me wondering if I'm able to be in relationship. If a guy expects a girlfriend to do those things, then clearly it's acceptable. However, it's not me. I'm not in a relationship, but I wouldn't mind one. I don't plan on solely focusing on that, and making my relationship be my sole thing I have going for me. (I mean come on. Girl who falls in love and gets married and spits out children? Boring life story. Now girl who has a career, a family, a great romance, and not to mention an awesome car....that's what I'm talking about.) I have school. Grad school. A job to find. I have many books to read, a difference to make and people to help. I can't spend my time being unhappy because someone didn't call me. I think life's too short to be unhappy, and therefore why should I spend my life being sad.
 If and when some guy is dumb enough to go out with me, I can guarantee that I won't do that unless he does something completely stupid or I have emotional reason to. I'm not trying to offend anyone who does fall into this category, I just don't fall into it. Is it bad? Maybe. But I want to be in a relationship that's happy and relaxed. Not one that makes me sad. Sad macs should just stay computers.

Can't Change The Past; Can Change The Future.

I often worry about things that may or may not happen. Based on my past experiences, I often think that they will happen again in the future.
Well, they won't.
What's in the past is in the past. It's like the paper that you've already written and handed in; it's done, and you can't change what's already pierced the paper. You can't worry about it because it's already in the teacher's hands. What's done is done.
The future is like the dependent variable; it's the constant that forever changes. Whatever action you are doing now will affect your future. You know that test that you have on Monday? The one that you know is like your hardest subject. Yeah, you know. Well you have two options. The first is to blow it off all weekend and spend your weekend in the pool. If you do this, then on Monday you'll look at the test, not know anything and ultimately fail. The second one is if you study and balance some play in efficiently. Then on Monday you know all of the answers and get an A.
I'm learning that lesson now. The figures who hurt me in the past are no longer here to haunt me in the future. I know that the people in my present aren't the ones from my past. They won't hurt me because they don't have the capacity as those previously.
With that, I still have fear that remains. Fear of getting close to someone who may one day leave. Because of that I panic, and because of that, I get upset. But being scared about losing something is pointless because if you're so scared of losing it why do you even want it so badly? If a bird doesn't want to stay, it won't stay.
The past is in the past. It was bleak, and it's behind us. The future remains in front of us; something bright and shiny to look foreward to with open arms.
And that's a fact.

Forever Curious

One of the things I like most about psychology is the fact that it give us the answers to why we act the way that we act. It gives us an inside edition, the x-ray image of behavior. I like to look for reasons behind the story.
There are so many theories out there in the field. Freud's psycho-sexual stages, Erikson's stages of identity, Marcia's theories of identity, Gardner's theories of intelligence, and Piaget's stages of development are some of the many out there. Each view of psychology has contributed to the field, similar to how a pizza topping contributes to the pizza. It only makes the field that much more interesting.
I'll forever be curious. I can't wait to get my life started in this field so I have the ability to learn about human behaviors and motivations. I can't wait to have patients with problems  and know that with my help they will develop a solution.
So why am I psychology major? It's because I'm forever curious. 

What I've Learned

This past year has been a whirlwind of extreme academics, and self discovery. One may say that the first year of a college student is the year that changes you the most. And I guess you can say that I can agree.
This past year, I've learned many things. Some things are about life, some are about love, and some are things that would only apply in the classroom.
I've learned that if you want something you should just go for it. Don't think just do. I'm tired of regretting and I know what I want. For example, when I began thinking about how much I love helping people by giving them a person to talk to, I have realized that maybe being just an English major isn't the way for me. Sure, I'm a writer. But, I'm more than just a writer. However, when making the decision, I've had an important obstacle, which is my diagnosis of Vasel Vagol Syncopy, which prevented me from declaring psychology as my major in the first place. (For those of you who don't know what it is, basically it's a medical (not mental) condition that basically causes you to pass out based on a trigger. Mine is talking about and looking at medical stuff) However, when filing the paperwork, and after careful thinking, I realized that if it's the only thing that is holding me back, then maybe I should go for it. I can overcome it, especially since it's preventing me from doing something that I love the most. (sorry writing) I know double majoring is crazy, and won't be easy, but by the end when I walk the stage four years from now with not one, but two degrees, I'll be proving the many people who didn't think I could do well wrong.  I can't wait to begin my work as a pyschologist, even though I have to go through hell to get there. It makes it all more worth it.
I've learned a lot about the friends that I call my own. Sometimes, I'm like and EKG machine (is that what it's called? If not, someone tell me what it's called), my emotions going up and now like the the needle. In the past few years, I've went through the grieving processes, in addition to dealing with life pressures. The friends who have stood by my through it all are the ones that I can say are the friends I'll have for life. Some of them are new, some of them are old. It doesn't matter. They are still good. Friends, well the good ones, are the stars. Thank you guys.
This past year has caused me to change. But, I hope it's in a good way! :) (I also learned that I really enjoy smiley faces! Yay!)