Things I Love Thursday: Halloween Edition

Happy Halloween fellow readers, friends, and bloggers! I hope you all have a great day doing whatever is your doing, whether its handing out candy, getting candy, or going to a party. As for me, I'm going to be at home, watching the Charlie Brown special. I'm lame, but hey it's a classic. So, to get into the Halloween spirit, instead of reviewing products, I'm going to tell you what I enjoy most about the holiday.

1. Charlie Brown Specials. I mean every holiday has its own special, but hey come on. It's never going to get old, no matter how many times I want to scream at Linus that the Great Pumpkin isn't Santa Claus. 

2.      Candy. I mean come on, who doesn't like candy? My favorite kind of candy this time of year is candy corn, and those really sugary pumpkins that you know that you really shouldn't be eating, but then you end up eating half of a bowl of. I also enjoy all of those Reese's Peanut Butter Cups that are shaped like pumpkins. Yum!

Happy Halloween! 

Music Monday: Demi Lovato

Demi Lovato has been one of those artists that I've liked since the very beginning. I remember watching her on Camp Rock as a tween, and constantly listening to the song "This is Me" on repeat. A year later, she released Here We Go Again (I will admit I really didn't like that one all too much) During that time, I didn't think that a Disney star could have much affect on me, and become an inspiration.
Fast forward to 2011, after she went to rehab, and released the album Unbroken. That album, honestly, is one of my favorite albums. It's so inspirational, because it talks about rising from hardship, and struggle. I think every teenager should listen to it, because they can relate to it. The album gives someone hope, and the strength to do things that they wouldn't otherwise have. This year, she released Demi, and those songs are so real, and honest.
To put it plain and simple, Demi is just talented. But in addition to her music, she's a really good role model. She talks about self acceptance, and self love. I think that's great, because there's so much insecurity in the world. Come on, we all have had moments of being insecure. I look up to Demi, because she's a strong woman. She's dedicated to her work. We really need to have those in the world.
Therefore, Demi, you're the Music Monday for this week!
Songs I Like:

• Made in the USA
• Without the Love 
• Neon Lights
• Warrior
• La La Land
• Gonna Get Caught
• Believe in Me
• Trainwreck
• Party 
• Don't Forget
• Two Worlds Collide
• The Middle
• Get Back 
• Heart Attack 
• Here We Go Again
• Got Dynamite
• Solo
• U Ain't Got Nothing On Me
• So Far So Great
• All Night Long
• Skyscraper
• Work of Art
• Unbroken
• My Love's Like a Star
• For the Love a Daughter
• Give your Heart a Break
• Lightwieght
• Together
• In Real Life
• You're my Only Shawty
• This is Me
• Wouldn't Change a Thing
• 
  

Waving the White Flag

For the past year, I wanted more then anything to be a psychologist. I wanted to help people with mental health issues such as schizoprenia, and alztimer's disease. However, I still loved writing and reading, which is why English was my first major.
In the spring, I became a double major in English and Psychology. I knew that at that point, that it was meant to be. I could at last attend to my dreams, and go on to be great.
Fast foreward to October, when I'm walking out of and skipping classes. I was paralyzed by pressure. My levels of stress were higher than the walls of the lecture halls around me. What if I didn't get an A in this class? Would I be good enough to get into graduate school.
Safe to say, the pressure got to me and my sanity. I was bitter, and I knew that something had to be done. I realized that I couldn't do this to myself. I couldn't a; walk out of classrooms in my condition, and b; put myself under so much pressure that I'm cracking. Something had to change.
I knew that I couldn't become a psychologist. I had wanted to be the outlier, to be able to overcome a hurdle. However, with some hurdles that are too big to jump, we can't help but not jump at all. I have vasol vagol syncopy, and it's catching up with me in more ways than one. I had tried to overcome it, but I couldn't do just that. As much as I loved psychology, I knew that I couldn't major in it no matter how hard I tried, and how much I wanted it. Somethings, no matter how hard that you try to overcome, it's physically impossible for you to do just that.
But, I did know what I want. I want, more than anything to be a writer. I love writing dearly. I love that no matter what, I can write out my feelings and feel good about whatever is bothering me. I knew that in my heart, I wanted to write in a newspaper, magazine, and even my own books somewhere down the line. In a way, writing is something that I know would make me happy. Even though it's not going to change lives, like I wanted to do, perhaps I can change the world with my written words.
A few days ago, I went into my adviser's office and filled out the paperwork in addition to picking out what I'm going to take for the next semester. Now that I'm no longer a psychology major, after December, I will never ever have to take a psychology class again. I'm relieved, and I know that I made the right decision. I may face judgement, and I may face people who think that I should have stuck with it a little longer, but in reality I have to do whats best for me and my future. My GPA's going down this semester, and I accept that fully. However, along as I pass my classes, I don't care.
I waved the white flag, and let go of the balloon. I'm not giving up, and I still promise to work hard. However, I'm not going to be a social worker, or anything in the mental health field, and that's okay. Sometimes, we find our paths in weird ways, and no matter how hard we try to resist, it's staring right in front of us down in the face. I did the right thing, I know it.

Its All Fate

Today I was home sick and was watching 500 Days of Summer. Although I feel better now, the movie got me thinking.

The movie talked about chance and fate and all of that good stuff. It talked about how things are meant to be, especially when it comes to love. That things, no matter how shitty they may be, and now matter how crappy you feel when you break up with someone, in the end, its all going to work out. 

I think humans try to create their own fate, rather than just let it happen. We are trying to create a fate that perhaps we are not meant to have. Fate isn't something that you buy in a grocery store, its something that you are born with. We can try to make things happen in our favor, and we can try to push for things to happen, but like it was said in the movie the Holiday. It's like fitting a square peg in a round hole. No matter how hard we try, we can't because it simply won't go. We can try, work hard to make the square part of ourselves more round, but that would mean that we're living a lie. Sometimes, we desire something so badly that we sit and we make it happen. However, sometimes the things that we want so badly can lead to us feeling miserable once we get them. Perhaps they weren't worth having at all.

Life is a game of chance, luck, and serendipity. When love is meant for us, it will happen. It can't be forced, and once we know we know. I am not in any way shape or form to be tied down to someone, because it feels forced. I do what makes me happy, with people who make me happy. Life and love can hurt, but sometimes we have to experience all of that to get to the good stuff. Kind of like when you're a kid and you have to eat all of your vegetables to be rewarded with dessert. I want to be happy  because I am, not because I'm living a norm that someone else created for me. I can sit and smile and make nice, but I'm not going to live with something that makes me unhappy.

We can live and we can do. I do believe in love. I believe in feeling happy, but because I want to be, not because I want someone to make me. Most importantly, I don't ever want to lower myself for love or to make someone happy. The hell with that. If it's meant to be, then we'll be together and be the envy of singles everywhere. I think if its meant to be, there's no thinking, there's just doing. It's that simple. There's no sacrifice, no misery, no nothing. Yes, couples fight, and tha'ts pretty normal. It's the fact that you can fight, shows that you're willing to fight for what you love. Of course, too much fighting would make you want to rethink that.

Fate's fate. Some people that we encounter are meant to hurt us. Some people in life are meant to make us happy. I think we should stop trying to make things happen, and just relax and let them. I know it's not that black and white, but its something like that. 

Things I Love Thursday: Sally Hansen Nail Strips

Yes, I'm a girl who enjoys painting her nails.However, since I bead in my spare time, polish tends to not stick around for very long, and therefore in about two days, my nails would go from looking pretty to a hot mess. Because I didn't want to like waste perfectly good (and expensive) nail polish, I decided to not paint them for a while, and that made me very sad. I wanted to get the whole fake nail thing, but I wasn' t comfortable with putting glue on my nails. Then, I discovered this wonderful product!
The process is very intense. You have to peel the nail, stretch it on, and then trim the excess off. It sounds simple, but since I'm accident prone, I had my mother on hand. It took about a half an hour to put them on.
However, once I got them on I didn't have to wait for them to dry (unlike most nail polishes...) which I liked because I always somehow smudge my nails while waiting for them to dry. So for once, I had perfect nails, which was exciting.
Once they were on, they didn't come off. I found that excellent because I didn't have to change them for about two weeks. The fact that they were long lasting is a reason why I bought them again and again.
However, a downside of this product is that it's hard to find stuff that isn't wild and crazy. I thought the patterns were cute, however, they were a little out there for my taste. I would have liked to see them have more plain colors, and less out there ones. Another downside is that they are a little hard to get off, however, if you scrub at your nails, it will be off in about ten minutes.
I recommend this product highly to people who do crafts, people who have trouble keeping their nails chip free, or people who like to experiment with cool nail patterns. All and all, I will be buying these for a long time to come.

Ally Week!

I'm an ally. I wear purple on spirit days, and I'm silent on days of silence. I'm not a lesbian, but I sure as hell support the glsen and wear that label proudly. I think that ally week should be every week because they are just as important as the people who actually are in the community. Without allys, the community would lack the support needed for acceptance to make the community at long last, a part of society that truly has a voice.
One of my best friends is gay. It bothers me that he can't get married in certain states, just because he wants to marry a man. People who can get married after not known each other for very long can get married anywhere, but two men who are in love and deserve to get married can't because in some states, that's illegal. It bothers me that people still think that it's cool to say words such as "fag" or use phrases such as "that's so gay". Dude, it's offensive. Whenever I hear those words, I literally want to punch those people in the face. Hate has become an avid part of our society, and I think it's simply stupid. We're faced with prejudices and sterotypes, and some hate those are different than the norm. I think that since we don't know or are afraid of it, we simply hate on it. Hate is stupid, because when we hate, we're closing our minds to change. To change, we need to have an open mind. I think that we need to change, because things are pretty fucked up the way that they are. Sure, we've made progress, but that doesn't mean that there's still more to be made.
I've known people who are self conscious because they think lesbians are wierd, or self conscious, and that's  okay because that's what floats their book. I respect those who have oposing views because I want them to respect my views. We live in a society where I think that we can benefit from more ideas, and more ideas make a brighter future. If I encounter someone who doesn't agree with me, I simply nod, and ask them what made them think the way that they do. There are people on this earth who don't agree with gay marriage and rights, and they suck, in my opinion. To hate on them because they simply view things differently than I do? That's like going down to their level, and fighting a war on hate with hate will only produce hate.
One thing that I would like to address about being an ally is that it doesn't mean that I'm a lesbian. There's nothing wrong with that first of all. Second of all, I feel like people need to get their heads out of their asses and educate themselves on what being an ally really is. We support people who are lesbian, gay, transgenders, and bi. We're the progression, looking to make tomorrow a world that's free for everyone. If you're not an ally, we respect your views too. But don't hate on us, because we're trying to make tomorrow's generation more liberal.

#singlegirlproblems

I've been single for pretty much my whole life. Although sometimes it has its shining moments, other days I feel like I'm just ready for someone to be, you know, my man. (Ick, I hate that term; why did I just say that?.) I honestly can't navigate the whole finding a significant other thing. I'm awkward, clumsy, and clueless wrapped in one tiny little package. I can't flirt to save my life, and I sure as hell can't pull off sexy. Here's some of my problems I encounter or have encountered as a single gal. And FYI, I'm not complaining about being single. I believe that it's a good thing, and I'm not desperate to shack up with anyone. But sometimes, we single gals needa vent too..we have feelings ya know?

• This is the problem that I've been encountering a lot lately. I honestly can't figure out how to flirt, and I can't figure out if someone likes me, is just being friendly. If you can shed some light in this sort of this situation, please let me know. I wish there was a way that you can just automatically know how someone feels about you, like some sort of lightbulb going off on them. It makes life so much easier than playing a guessing game that you can be wrong with. I'm so worried about making a complete and total fool of myself, that I often a don't react or react stupidly. I constantly worry that I'm getting hopes up just to be friend-zoned. 
• Dealing with creeps. Story time? I was talking to this kid that I never met before. My friend gave me his number, and in a YOLO sort of moment, I decided to text him. Big mistake. Highlights of this story include being completely creeped on, and of course, the topper was being asked if he can rub some lotion on me. What a creep. Seriously, the worst part of being single is dealing with people who think just cause you're single, you're looking for someone, and you're into them. No, bro you're not getting into my pants. I don't give a fuck on how horny you are. Sorry not sorry.
• Dealing with friends who complain about their boyfriends. I've had friends like this, and it honestly made me not want to be in a relationship. I really don't like drama, because I think it's stupid, and childish. I don't like hearing it, and I sure as hell don't want to be a part of it. If I have to hear about your relationship drama, I'm probably not going to be talking to you much anymore. 

Those are my single gal problems. What are yours, single girls?

Music Monday: Ozzy Osbourne

Last week, I told y'all about my favorite band of all time. This week, I'm introducing y'all to my favorite male singer. And that my friends is Ozzy Osbourne. 

Ozzy was in a band called Black Sabbath, which was a part of the medal revolution in the 70s. Ozzy eventually ventured into his own solo career, in addition to his work with the band. I don't really follow Black Sabbath all too much, to be honest. I'm actually starting to get into them. However, with all of the works that I've listened to by Ozzy, I can see that he's the prince of darkness. 

One of my favorite albums of all time is "No More Tears", released in 1991. It went double platinum. I have the reissue verison, and honestly, it was one of the best purchases that I've ever made. I don't think that there's a single song on the CD that I don't like. (Fun fact: Mr. Tinkertrain is my number one most played song on my iTunes.)

I like to listen to Ozzy because whenever I listen to him I feel like a complete and total badass. Truly, and utterly, he is the prince of darkness, whereas Aerosmith is the kings of rock and roll. He may have crazy like tendencies, but all and all he's a damn good musician. 

Favorite Ozzy Songs: 

• Mr. Tinkertrain
• Not Going Away 
• I Don't Wanna Stop
• I Don't Know
• Desire
• No More Tears
• Hellraiser
• Don't Blame Me
• Zombie Stomp
• Mama, I'm Coming Home
• Party With the Animals
• Crazy Train
• Let Me Hear You Scream
• Time After Time
• Let it Die
• Iron Man

Not For Me

Recently, I had written an article for my school newspaper about partying. I wasn't sure how to write it, because I didn't want to include a rant about what I think about the matter. So, since this is my blog, and  I can do whatever the hell I want to with it, here's what I'd like to say about it. Needless to say, I have to put my two cents in.
I'm not into partying. I'm not into getting wasted every weekend, and hooking up with random strangers. It just doesn't satisfy me. I'm the type of person who would rather go shopping for hours, read a book, write a rant (like I'm doing now), or just watch movies. It's just not my thing, plain and simple. I'm not all for doing things that can cause me to act stupidly. When I'm 21, I do plan to drink don't get me wrong. Until then, I'm not going to engage in the whole forbidden apple complex. (Meaning that some people only drink just because it's illegal.)
Going out every weekend can have it's upsides and downsides. You meet people, and for some people get to relax. However, a downside of clubbing is that you have to deal with creeps who want nothing more than to get in your pants. I don't know about you, but to me that sounds kind of scary.
A lot of people think I judge people who engage in this sort of behavior. Although I try not to, I will admit that sometimes judgement leaks out. I do have friends who party, and that's okay. It's what floats their boat, and makes them happy. I can't tell them that their stupid or something simply because they do things that I don't agree with. It's none of my business.
However, if a friend or someone who thinks that they are my friend tries to change my views or try to suck me into that, I will, without a doubt cut them off. You're not my friend if you think it's okay to push me into something that I really don't want to do. You're not my friend if you think I'm uncool for staying home Friday nights, or go to movies versus going to a club. Friends don't push each other into doing things. If you need a reason to why I don't want to do so; you're not my friend. Once I say that I'm not into that, you shouldn't question it. It's my life, not yours. I can only respect your decisions if you respect mine. I don't want to be sucked into that, and I really shouldn't have to explain myself to you.
Society makes drinking seem like it's the it thing to do. It's really not for me, plain and simple.

To Tweet or Not to Tweet.

Tweet; tweet! No, I'm not a bird, but I'm on twitter. Twitter is great because in one swoop you can see what your friends are up to in one shot. However, with this amount of greatness, there comes some great responsibility. (as does with most power.) There is times when we shouldn't tweet. Here's a few examples of when you should hold back on Twitter:

• Saying something about someone that perhaps would hurt someone's feelings. Those things you should leave off of the internet, because it's so hurtful reading something, especially negative about you on a public forum. If you're hurt that's fine. That's why they make diaries, and private messaging for. Vent your feelings for. 
• Leave relationships offline. I hate going on to Facebook, and constantly reading relationship statuses, about how you're boyfriend's the love of your life, and your soulmate. I think it's okay to post a few pictures here and there, and write about what you're doing. I however do think that there's a limit of what you should post about your boyfriend. For starters, it takes away from the privacy off your relationship. It then becomes to viral and public, and you lose all of that private intimacy that you crave. That's what's important. So, basically limit yourself to what you post on the social networks about your boyfriend. Not everyone needs to know about that.
• Going with the last post, is leave your relationship drama offline too. I think that you shouldn't post statuses when you're angry with anyone, whether it's your mom or your significant other. With that being said, don't post things about how your boyfriend doesn't answer his phone or how he hurts you because he's a bad person or something. I don't want to hear it. I don't want to see it when I'm casually browsing my newsfeed. So please do me a favor and vent to your friends about it, not random strangers or people you kind of know. Like I said before, relationships are something that should be private, and thus shouldn't be all of what you're posting.
• Nude or drunk pictures. Plain and simple, Twitter's a public place, and by posting pictures of yourself wearing skimpy clothing or being plain old drunk is cool. However, when your future employer looks at that...then you're screwed. 

All and all, I love Twitter. I get to contact my friends across the world, and the country. I get to know what my favorite celebraty is up to at this very moment. However, it has its bad things, and these are just to name a few.

Words Hurt Too.

I’m not a huge fan of Facebook. Something about the fact that your friends can see everything that you’re doing at any moment really annoys me. Also, I don’t like that the posts which are very obsolete in my opinion can cause arguments and despair. So many times, friendships and relationships have come to an end based on posted on social networking sites. This, in my opinion, is stupid. I believe simply that  Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter is a public place, so whatever is published on those sites is available for all people to see. However, under the first amendment, we have the right to say, post and publish whatever we want without penalty and or punishment.

                The thing about social networking posts is sometimes they can hurt. Boyfriends with new girlfriends haunt the bitter ex. Former best friends, people who we thought could never hurt us, use things that we told in secret as ammunition in a war both virtual and actual during a dispute. Since they know how to hurt us, we get hurt. Things can get ugly in the blink of an eye, and there's nothing we can do about it. It's there for us to see, unless we block that person. 

                Whoever said that sticks and stones can break my bones, but names can never hurt me was clearly lying. Names and words can hurt. Sometimes, their effect because although it's pain, physical pain gets healed with medicine and happy doctors. Psychological pain, on the other hand not so much. It can take years for a psychological scar to undo itself.

                Overall, the post is be careful what you post. Facebook is a good way to connect with the people that’s actually around you, in addition to the people who we no longer get to see everyday. However, with something that is great, there is some evil. Every good thing has something bad about it. Treat others the way that you want to be treated, and that should be as simple as that. With that being said, you should be careful what you post, because it can have effects greater than what you can think of. 

Music Monday; Aerosmith

My favorite band in the whole wide world is a band from Boston, started in the early 70s. They, in my opinion are the true meaning of rock and roll. I literally can't say that there isn't a song by them that I don't like. Whenever I listen to them, I feel like a badass. Who is this band, who in my opinion, are the kings of rock and roll? Why that would be none other than Aerosmith!
Aerosmith has been around for decades, producing tons of hits. Most of you would know their song "I Don't Want to Miss A Thing" from Armageddon. (I will admit that it's a very good song), and "(Dude!) Looks Like a Lady!" from Mrs. Doubtfire. And who can forget their hit "Walk This Way" from Sex and the City? They are icons in the name of rock and roll, and will always be my favorite band, despite the fact that sometimes I may not listen to them on a daily basis.
Here's my favorites:

• Angel
• Blind Man
• Crazy
• Dueces Are Wild
• Dream On
• Dude! Looks Like a Lady
• Eat the Rich
• Get a Grip
• Heart's Done Time
• I Don't Want to Miss a Thing
• Let the Music do the Talking 
• Livin' on the Edge
• Love in an Elevator
• Luv XXX
• Nine Lives
• Pink 
• Rag Doll 
• Rats in the Cellar 
• Sweet Emotion
• Toys in the Attic
• Walk on Water
• Walk this Way
• What Kind of Love You're On
• Woman of the World

Here's a music video to Walk on Water:

Walk on Water

Rock on!